Category Archives: Self

Buddhism, Selflessness, Non-clinging, Power and Enabling

I cannot say I am typing this from the perspective of a papered, academic scholar or a person with some sort of lineage scroll to roll out. This may put me at a disadvantage for those who require it. Rather I speak from a meandering of experience wherein there are crossroads or events, like origami that fold over one another to reveal something else.

There is a gift to the concept of selflessness and non-clinging; the gift of relinquishing of pain. I came by it through training as an uchideshi (a live-in apprentice) at a traditionally run Aikido dojo. Continue reading

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Joe, Mara, Death, Clinging, Process

The following entry is not done with detached equanimity. It is written in the raw; with imperfection . I strive to do well and to be well but what follows is a stumbling block that I have yet to clear. The intention of posting is to hang it out in the proverbial sun and hopefully push myself farther along the proverbial road.

Five years. It’s been almost five years since an important human touchstone decided he’d rather annihilate himself than continue his existence. Continue reading

Thoughts and Reflections on Sandy Hook

[A note to the reader: I am not writing to reflect on the details of Sandy Hook but rather how we react to tragedy. I may modify this entry to be more specific in the future but have avoided it due to the acute emotional trauma and the fact that so many are covering the details]

We go about our day, distracted with thoughts, observations, opinions and lists. Suddenly, something shocks us out of it. A bad driver, a missed exit, lightning, news of an environmental disaster. Each one of these things invokes an emotion and pulls us from the minutia and noise of our internal dialogue.  That emotion tends to manifest differently between an act of nature versus something done by a human. We tend to become angered when someone Continue reading

Kotodama of Sword and the Power of Words

PeacefulUeshiba

My first introduction to this word was as an aikidoka, training under a teacher who integrated a little more than just the martial art into practice. At the end of a small class, we sat in a circle and chanted simple, monosyllabic sounds while hovering our hands over various regions of our bodies. “Suuuuu..”, “Ohhhhhh…”, “Ahhhhh…”, “Aaaaaaaay…”, “Eeeeeee…” we would all chant together. I am not one to chant in a group, to recite prayers and the like, but I Continue reading

Stress, Telomeres, Longevity and Caregiving

I’m actually not finished watching this lecture but I found it very interesting as it relates to longevity and stress as the professor is also speaking of the caregiver and even how childhood traumas can affect telomeres and longevity. I may update after I finish watching.

Several studies cited. Many of them reinforcing Continue reading

Shame, Guilt, Vulnerability and Community

I started writing about the above along with narcissism and sociopathy but found myself feeling less clean about the time I spent on those 2 subjects in balance with the others. Needless to say I’ve had my exposure to too many clinical narcissists and I find it is just better to walk away from that topic.

Brené Brown however has some great stuff to say about shame and to her credit, she admits to Continue reading